irritated?
yes.
pissed way off my rocker.
check.
what pissed me off?
my mother.
what she did to inccur my wrath?
i have no bloody idea.

music being my only salvation.
and how a song can totally change a peron's mood.
so now.
its time for an article have has been way over due.

FRIENDS

In this lifetime, friends seem to be the most important thing in life. Especially mine. Honestly speaking, without the support I had, I think my very existence would have been gone by now.

So lets go through the list of friends over the years.

Kindergarten didn’t let me remember much, the fact that I was already horny and made out with a guy in the unisex toilet pretending to be power rangers. Silly? Yeah, I know. I also remembered this girl I always sat next to, her name was Siti or something. We had Chinese class together even though she was Malay. And I remembered that she liked to dig her nose and eat her snot. After my mum found out, she didn’t let me anywhere near her.

Time passed so fast that I suddenly found myself in primary school. That’s where I met the gang of four. Vanessa Wong, Natasha, Sheryl and myself. The irony being that both Vanessas were best friends and hated each other at the same time. We went to school with each other everyday for six years. You would automatically think that we would be friends for life. But I guess not. We would go to school together and go back to school together. I loved the trips back from school. We would play pretend and come up with all sorts of stories or we would pretend to be some girl band and sing at the top of our lungs. The best thing is, our houses are barely less than a 5 min walk away.

Primary school also came a time where I found my best friends. One by the name of Vanessa whom I didn’t like at the same time, and Samantha, who became my best friend at the later part of primary school. What happened to them? Well, I have no idea where Vanessa went, but Samantha and I still keep in contact and she is happy by the way. With the man of her dreams.

Suddenly secondary school came about. Its when culture shock took months to set in and you can’t seem to find any real friends. And secondary school came the time where I finally went to church. I know that I was late even though I was born catholic. So church was one place where I had to start making my friends all over again. And thank god that I had my cousin Jessamine to help me through it. Her friends quickly became mine. Especially Shabin. He being the one guy that has stuck with me through all these years. With every problem I had fitting in during the days of secondary school, he knew about it and helped me lift my chin up and made me feel so much better about it. But I know I’m digressing, so back to school I go.

So I had two close friends when it came to early secondary school. In Sec One, Amy and Amanda Ong were the people I constantly sat with during recess and the people I would always go home with, that was until some backstabbing came into the picture and I was out of that particular picture. That’s where Jasper came in, and Evangeline came in when we both went to Sec Three. It was because of the two of them that I actually went to school. And to take my O levels of course.

Besides school, I had my own share of friendship drama in church as well. In the beginning, everyone thought Shabin and I were together because it seems to them that a friendship between a male and female can never remain platonic. Well please let me clear the air. It was completely platonic from the very beginning. Church has let me to a whole new world. I always thought that Priscilla would be there, but I was so wrong. I thought that Amanda and Audrey and myself will never click, but I was wrong yet again. I thought that making friends with boy two years my junior would make me childish but it made me happy. I thought that once I break up with someone, the friendship is over, but he turned out to be the person who knows me better than I know myself. I thought enemies can never become friends. But now she’s like a sister to me, right Lexine?

Just when I thought that I’ve found friends that can last me a lifetime, I enrolled into RP and I found another friend who never fails to forget although he is always late when I meet him to go to school. Everyone, meet Dunfu.

Work has found me enemies and family as well. Those who were willing to catch my tears and were willing to endure my demands.

Which is why I believe, in every road you take, in every path you choose, you’ll always find new friends and family who would stand by you and defend you in every step of the way. Even though doubts may set in. Even though there are times where we might forget about each other. Friends remain as friends and they never stop being there for each other. Like how I’ll never stop being there for each and everyone of you.

So this is a tribute.

To friends who have been there for twelve years (Sheryl and Samantha.). For friends who have been there for six years (Jasper and Shabin). For friends who I have loved so much but have left the living ( Petina). For drink drivers (Claire). For the joys in church (Lexine, Amanda, Audrey, Jared and Sean). For family I’ve found at work ( Jolynn, Syaz, Nabilah, Faezah, Hafiz, Saiful, Fadhly and Jeremy).

Thank you for the love.

I would never have become the person I’ve become without you.

so i didn't go to school.
again.
sue me.